.heart&soul.

isn’t it crazy how one moment you’re feeling blissful? you can be daydreaming about a place you’ve never visited, or spinning around on your hardwood floors wishing you were a prima ballerina.. then next you smell an old candle & a pool of tears wells up in your eyes from the place.. the scent turned into memory..
i don’t wish to rewind my life, i’d like to move forward.. but sometimes.. sometimes if i could feel a memory just a little stronger, hold it for just a moment more..
but just like a flame on a candle.. it’s flickered out. 💛

{l.a.}

& don’t bother saying i love you, if your actions won’t follow your words.
me
i should be sleeping.

there is nothing quite like the feeling of knowing how cherished you are by the same people that mean the world to you.

when you & a friend laugh so hard you grow a six pack.

the world may be too big to travel everywhere in a lifetime. but the world is too beautiful to stand still for a lifetime. move.

you can wish & hope & pray for someone to love you back, but it shouldn’t take any of that. i believe in the power of prayer, & i also believe God lets people leave you because they don’t & won’t add to your life in a good way. let go of the past so you can live in the present & be excited about the future.

love doesn’t hurt. love isn’t pain. rejection hurts. being left alone is pain. too often are these words mixed up & messed up. let’s keep it straight.

naps are necessary. always.

there is nothing & no one in this world like an infant. the blessing an infant is, is indescribable & infinitely miraculous.

i never believed in love at first sight, until i looked at you… {11/21/06}

you can let your circumstances change you into a bitter bystander. or you can pick up the broken pieces & fight like crazy to push back. don’t ever stay broken. even through your tears, fight back. every time. no matter what.

sometimes the moments we think of as so very insignificant, become every moment of what’s the most significant. anything can help shape us. pay attention. grab the good, stomp on the bad.

don’t ever let a single day go by without learning something valuable, without speaking a positive message to someone, without thanking God for the breath you’re breathing.

always, without a doubt, choose love. love yourself, love others, love art, love words, love the ocean, love the skyline, love the dream in your heart. love. give it & receive it.

it wouldn’t matter if i tried to stay or i told you to go. what’s meant to be always happens. you can only fight for so long, leaving you exhausted. put down the swords of your words, the strength of your hurt. let it go.. just breathe.

- me.

and if at all for a little while i could feel okay, feel like i’m not kicking my feet to stay above the water.. i’m drowning, drowning so fast. i can’t stay afloat. nowhere in sight. you can’t hear my screams, you can’t see my cries. i’m almost gone..
lyz {me}
lipstickandsweatpants:

organizing my makeup since 24 hours ago.. such a process, but i love it. so girly & colorful. i am obsessed with nyx products & a girl never have enough baby lips balms!

love that i’ve had some time to update my 2nd blog. {go follow}

lipstickandsweatpants:

organizing my makeup since 24 hours ago.. such a process, but i love it. so girly & colorful. i am obsessed with nyx products & a girl never have enough baby lips balms!

love that i’ve had some time to update my 2nd blog. {go follow}
let’s get weird guys, go for it.

[this is my only blog i didn’t title myself, because it’s a reblog..]

hellur. so my twin jasmine {whose blog you can find here ——> ny2cali} reblogged this survey, so i figured i’d take it since i haven’t blogged in a little while. this working 60 hours a week is exhausting i tell you… but anyway, here we go:


1) Sexuality? welp that’s personal & i’m not gonna just post all that on here. too bad.

2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? oh geez that’s a tough one! there are so many people i’d love to meet so i’m gonna cheat & pick a few because this is my blog so i can do what i want lol. shailane woodley, morgan freeman, clare bowen {actually the whole cast of nashville!}, sharon rocha, kobe bryant, & my mind is drawing a blank….

3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. “augustus slammed the gas.” [tfios💛]

4) What do you think about most? life….

5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? “should be on the counter”

6) Do you sleep with or without clothes on? just undies

7) What’s your strangest talent? i can memorize numbers freakishly well, it’s very odd..

8) Girls…. (finish the sentence) like boys | Boys…. (finish the sentence) like girls.

9) Ever had a poem or song written about you? not that i’m aware of.

10) When is the last time you played the air guitar? uh a longgg time ago, if ever.

11) Do you have any strange phobias? birds & riding in a car.

12) Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose? nope.

13) What’s your religion? christian

14) If you are outside, what are you most likely doing? laying out by the pool, or driving to work ugh.

15) Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? only in front of if i’m taking it (otherwise i’m a tad bit awkward), but i like taking pics in general.

16) Simple but extremely complex; Favorite band? does the cast of nashville count? lol i also like the fray.

17) What was the last lie you told? i’m not saying i don’t lie, but i can’t remember. being sleepy is getting the best of me right now.

18) Do you believe in karma? i believe you reap what you sow yes.

19) What does your URL mean? {prettygirllove}, my blog is 3 1/2 yrs old, when i created it i wanted to have self esteem (the pretty) i’m a (girl) & i love to (love).

20) What is your greatest weakness; self doubt/telling myself i’m not good enough | your greatest strength? lifting up others, nuturing, hard worker.

21) Who is your celebrity crush? tyson beckford, chris hemsworth, & broderick hunter (he’s BEAUTIFUL).

22) Have you ever gone skinny dipping? nope.

23) How do you vent your anger? scream, talk to my bestfriend, or act out. depends on the day & what happened.

24) Do you have a collection of anything? bodywash, hair products, lotions, perfumes, NAIL POLISH, postcards, & giftcards on this collage thingy i made the other day :)

25) Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? i like to talk on the phone if i have a long story or multiple stories to tell. i like video chatting yes.

26) Are you happy with the person you’ve become? ehh, depends on the day.

27) What’s a sound you hate; sound you love? i cannotttt stand hearing people chew their food or talk with food in their mouth. whiney children (& no i don’t mean they just need a nap kind of whiney, i mean your child needs to be mannered whiney). & i cannot deal with sounds of writing on certain materials. my baby girl’s giggle, the sound of white noise (especially while i sleep), thunderstorms, & bubble wrap!

28) What’s your biggest “what if”? what if something happens to my daughter?

29) Do you believe in ghosts? | How about aliens? ghosts, i’m not sure (other than the Holy Ghost) & as for aliens, no i do not. at all.

30) Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? | Do the same with your left arm. right arm touches my couch, left touches my ottoman.

31) Smell the air. What do you smell? donatos pizza, cheesy bread, & cinnamon dessert thingy.

32) What’s the worst place you have ever been to? conner prairie. lol jk. i was just bitter my mom made me go when i was 16! it was fun when i was 9, but not 16….

33) Choose East Coast or West Coast? east as long as i’m going south haha! florida please & thank you.

34) Most attractive singer of your opposite gender? hmm, either trey songz or.. trey songz lol.

35) To you, what is the meaning of life? not so much a meaning but more so a purpose, i don’t know my individual purpose yet, but i believe we’re all here to live a full life, devoted to God, & to each other.

36) Define Art. i think the point of art is to not define.

37) Do you believe in luck? no.

38) What’s the weather like right now? mostly clear skies & hot lol. {i wish it’d stay summer foreverrr}

39) What time is it? 9:12pm

40) Do you drive? | If so, have you ever crashed? yes i do. & no not crashed.

41) What was the last book you read? “we, the jury”

42) Do you like the smell of gasoline? not at all.

43) Do you have any nicknames? lyz, chatterbox, & about 3 or 4 people call me lyzzie.

44) What was the last movie you saw? the fault in our stars.. for the 5th time. i love it so much.

45) What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had? i’ve never been injured like breaking a bone….

46) Have you ever caught a butterfly? ew no. i actually don’t like them. they creep me out.

47) Do you have any obsessions right now? the fault in our stars {book, movie, cast, soundtrack.. ALL of it} & godiva ice cream.

48) What’s your sexual orientation? straight.

49) Ever had a rumor spread about you? lol you mean just one? hilarious.

50) Do you believe in magic? uhhh idk.

51) Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong? sometimes. i don’t like to, but i have a hard time letting go of some things.

52) What is your astrological sign? virgo.

53) Do you save money or spend it? i used to spend it all [kind of recklessly], but now i’m doing well saving & only spending on bills & whatnot for the most part.

54) What’s the last thing you purchased? birthday gifts for my bestfriend. {can’t post what items because he hasn’t opened them all yet!}

55) Love or lust? love.

56) In a relationship? hahahahahahaha only with my pillow.

57) How many relationships have you had? i guess technically from my teenage years to now, like 5 or 6, but only 1 that was real & deep.

58) Can you touch your nose with your tongue? nope. [yes i just tried lol]

59) Where were you yesterday? work, other work, daniel’s, home.

60) Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you? a notebook, candle, basket, wand, perfume, eos egg, pen, & i think that’s all..

61) Are you wearing socks right now? nooooo. i can’t wear socks in my own house, feels weird.

62) What’s your favorite animal? CHEETAH. {i wanna own a baby cheetah so bad}

63) What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you? i don’t have nor need one. you either do or don’t. either is not a problem for me.

64) Where is your best friend? in tampa florida. slore. [i’m incrediblyyyy jealous, however, it’s supposed to storm the whole time hehehehe]

65) Shower or bath? shower most of the time, but when i do take a bath it’s so relaxing.

66) What is your heritage? mom’s side is german.

67) What were you doing last night at 12 AM? lol. sleeping.

68) What do you think is Satan’s last name? i don’t think he has one. & even if he does, it’s irrelevant lol i despise him. tuh.

69) Last tv show you watched? switched at birth.

70) Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend? yes.

71) You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do? call 911 & go to work.

72) You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? i would tell those who are the closest to me. b) What do you do with your remaining days? spend as much time as possible with my daughter & take us all {all, my favorites} on a vacation for a week then spend the rest of time just with her like a normal day every day. c) Would you be afraid? probably.

73) You can only have one of these things | trust or love. love, if i love you i more than likely trust you.

74) What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it? lennon & maisy’s version of ho hey & God of wonders.

75) What are the last four digits in your cell phone number? 4129.

76) In your opinion, what makes a great relationship? love, trust, consistency, loyaltly, honesty, being able to be who you really are with that person, forgiveness & grace, humility.

77) How can I win your heart? you can’t ;)

78) Can insanity bring on more creativity? perhaps.

79) What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far? EASILY giving birth to my daughter.

80) What size shoes do you wear? 7-8 depending on the style.

81) What would you want to be written on your tombstone? i’m not sure actually. [& i’ve actually thought about this multiple times]

82) What is your favorite word? hag.

83) Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart. camboo 💛

84) What is a saying you say a lot? let me tell you….

85) What’s the last song you listened to? long way down {tom odell}

86) Basic question | what’s your favorite color/colors? blue, pink, yellow

87) What is your current desktop picture? i don’t own a desktop but the background on my ipad air says •life is short buy the makeup•

88) If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be? omg that’s awful. i don’t want to kill anyone.

89) What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on? if i were that afraid why would i type that here….

90) One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do? leave if possible. i cannot. ugh. no. no.

91) You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power? i’d want to be like storm in x-men.

92) You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again? omg yes. i would re-live 30 mins of when my daughter was first born. just hold her.

93) You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be? yeah no. not here.

94) You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. | Who would it be? tyrese.

95) You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go? australia.

96) Do you have any relatives in jail? yes. (well, prison.)

97) Have you ever thrown up in the car? not so much IN the car as out the window ONTO the car. whoops.

98) Ever been on a plane? yes, i love flying.

99) If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say? oh goodness i’m not sure.. {as i’m falling asleep trying to type..}

i can see the changes, i feel them daily.. wish they’d scattered, wish they’d wash away.. stay gone forever, don’t ever come back.. wish i could leave this town, without a second thought.
myself
normal. is there such a thing? i was just sitting in traffic. sitting in traffic & just started crying thinking of a man i used to date. it’s been years. how can it still trigger tears. trigger pain. i don’t understand. thinking is this normal? but what is normal? none of us know. we just make it all up. gosh i miss him some days. miss the us we were. but no sense in dwelling after hitting the post button. go about my day now….
by the {looks} of it….

so, let me just start by saying i have about a million & one things i could currently blog about, i’ve been wanting to blog for days (probably actually weeks). but i’ve been too busy or tired.. or both. i could easily blog about my personal life considering i’m in deep conversation right now about my life with my best friend, however, i promised another friend i was going to blog about something else. i said i was going to write last night, but instead i chose to finish reading {the fault in our stars, by john green}. amazing book btw. i am stoked to see the movie next week oh em gee.

anywho, so yesterday my friend antonio posted a photo on facebook with a side by side of dawn (idontknowherlastname), the singer who was a part of danity kane. under these two pictures antonio had screen shot his comments on the original photo of the side by side of dawn. this photo is floating around social media because, OH MY GOSH, the girl got a nose job. [insert sarcasm] now i didn’t understand why this girl getting a nose job was such a huge deal, but apparently to some thousand strangers of dawn, it was. [rolls eyes]

among some of the comments on the photo were quite a few women complaining saying that dawn has “de-ethnicized” herself. (whether that’s even an actual word with a legit definition i have no idea, & i don’t care enough to google it). there was also a comment that struck me, it read “she’s a completely different person”. come again?

i just cannot type this blog without rolling my eyes & laughing a sarcastic laugh because these remarks [in my opinion. oh duh it is MY blog] are ridiculously stupid.

how in thee heck did dawn “de-ethnicize” herself because she made her nose smaller?! i KNOW what these women are implying, but i just think it’s absurd & ignorant. this woman is still black, getting a nose job did not change the color of her skin nor ethnicity. furthermore, just because some people choose to bask in their enthnicity & find out as much about their culture & ancestors & so on.. does not mean EVERYONE wants to nor should have to! ugh. this is making my head tired just thinking how some people feel like everyone has to relish in their background. i honestly couldn’t care less about where my ancestors are from or what .23795% of me might be italian or irish or WHATEVER. [throws hands up] how is me not wanting to know these things going to change anything about my life drastically before i die? seriously. oh flippin well.

and the comment about her being a “completely different person” because of plastic surgery is not only an extreme judgement, but also a judgement that this person has no right to make considering she doesn’t personally know dawn. has dawn’s nose job changed her personality & life? surely it has somewhat or else she wouldn’t of felt she needed one. however, my point is this, no one i’ve ever heard of paid thousands of dollars for plastic surgery because they thought it would lessen their life, because they thought it would make them look or feel worse. let’s be smart here people. no one will know (unless dawn herself decides to speak on it) why she got the nose job, but it SHOULD be (although must not be considering this idiocy behind the comments) clear that she most likely got a different nose because she thought it would better her appearance & make her like the way she looks. and everyone knows when you feel good about your appearance you tend to have more confidence.

antonio made a comment that was also in line with my own thoughts, he said, “and everybody can save the “nose jobs are downgrading to african american black heritage” comments…. as many african american women running around with malaysian & brazilian weave down to their ankles. let’s not overlook those appearances as well. bottom line: whatever makes you happy, DO IT.” antonio is right. so many of the women who were making negative comments about dawn trying to be “whiter” (which don’t even get me started on the whole “you’re more this color than this color” topic!) had weave, fake eyelashes, or both. {yes i really did look!} the thing is, who the heck cares about your weave? NOBODY. so why so much concern about HER decision to alter HER appearance? how is it anyone’s business anyway to be concerned? i understand she’s a public figure yes, but she hasn’t broken any laws, she hasn’t committed a crime, she hasn’t even spoke on the matter! (probably because she doesn’t care what everyone thinks, or else she wouldn’t of got the surgery in the first place!)

i told antonio what’s comical about this to me is that if some of those women who were commenting had a best friend or someone close to them getting some form of plastic surgery they would most likely be right there cheering them on & telling them how good they look. the irony.

fake hair, fake nails, natural hair, spray tan, false lashes, colored contacts, botox, lip injections, body wraps, makeup, plastic surgery… there are so many ways us women can alter ourselves. but you know what comes to my mind as needing altered the most? nothing from that list above. we need to alter our lips to only speak kind positive words. we need to alter our faces to smile more & stop giving other women dirty looks. we need to alter our thinking & instead of finding the one or two wrong things about other woman {whether it be physical or not} we should think about the good things about her.

this world we live in is frustrating. we’re slow to build up other women {especially strangers}, but quick to tear them down. it’s a shame really. i hope it changes one day, i don’t think it will completely, but i’m glad to know i’m not responsible for what others do or say to me or about others. i just need to worry about how i carry myself & how i am toward others.

sleep tight tumbs. {xoxo}